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20090130

Kenny Cetera

Peter Cetera's younger brother, Kenny. He's been singing and drumming
for years. I have a couple demo recordings of his from the 80's or
90's, one of which is "Could It Be You" (on this site). Not a bad
voice, but other than having a strong hint of the tenor "air" like
Peter once had (now I consider him more of a present-day crooner), I
can't detect any vocal resemblances like I do with Peter and his
daughter, Claire. To me he sounds more like Michael W. Smith, Tony
Lewis, Russell Hitchcock and Paul Simon, all mixed in together as one
voice and stripped of power. I think this impression would be
lessened if his voice was mixed better with his music, though, and if
he wrote his own stuff (the stuff on the site, I'm not sure he did
write it).

Anywho, here's the site for him:
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=280844120

Oh, in case you don't know some of these:
Peter Cetera - currently a solo artist, but was once a lead singer and
bassist for Chicago (You're The Inspiration; If You Leave Me Now;
Glory Of Love; Feels Like Heaven)
Michael W. Smith - a Christian Pop singer (I Will Be Here For You;
Place In This World)
Tony Lewis - lead singer for The Outfield (Voices Of Babylon; Alone
With You)
Russell Hitchcock - the higher voice for Air Supply (Lost In Love;
Making Love Out Of Nothing At All; All Out Of Love)
Paul Simon - the higher voice for Simon & Garfunkel and he did lots of
solo work also (Slip Slidin' Away; The Sound Of Silence)

Rant on Minorities (again)

I'm also looking at statistics for the various state school systems.
I'm noticing that the majority of states with a high percentage of
folks getting free or reduced lunch rates also have corresponding
black and hispanic numbers.

Massachusetts (where I grew up) is one of the top players (not the
highest by any means) with 73% of students receiving this benefit.
13.5% of the students are classified as "white" while 40.9% are black
and 35.2% are hispanic. I love statistics but having grown up in a
mostly-black-and-hispanic neighbourhood, the only thing I can see
about the "minorities" failing in life is that they CAN'T SPEAK PROPER
ENGLISH.

Far be it from a little poor city girl to figure THAT out, though...
zheezh. And I state this: To someone growing up as a white minority,
it's very hard to fathom why they're still being called minorities in
the first place. Equality, people. We gots it. Let it rest, go
learn English, and do something with your own life instead of crying
about your poor peoples. Egads, every people on earth has been
discriminated against. If it's not happening to you now and you're
not actively involved in stopping it for others actually in the
situation, then get over it.

I simply do not comprehend why race and sex have anything to do with
anything anyway. The only logical thing I can think of is that women
give birth and men don't (for the most part). But race is foobar
aside from potential physical differences. I've seen some pretty
athletic white folks, though, which blows the "blacks are better
basketball players" idea right out of the water.

Listen up, people: We've all got our strengths and weaknesses. Learn
how to exploit your strengths and curb your weaknesses for the
betterment of Society, and the world at large may just have more
respect for us as a Nation.

End Rant.

Teacher Quality my butt

You know, the word "deserve" is really getting on my nerves, too,
these days. I read the first paragraph of this site about teacher
quality and cannot stand the use of the English language anymore.

"The National Council on Teacher Quality is a nonpartisan research and
advocacy group committed to restructuring the teaching profession, led
by our vision that every child deserves effective teachers."

Children do not DESERVE effective teachers, because to deserve
something, you must be worthy of reward. Children are too young and
moldable to _deserve_ a headstart in life because they haven't done
anything with their lives yet to warrant such a statement. Rather,
knowledge is paramount to every child's future. It isn't deserved;
it's a necessity in our society to give every child equal
opportunities. What each child does with those opportunities is up to
them.

I have trouble placing stock in the site at all if the authours
themselves have not been correctly taught. Perhaps their vendetta is
due to their own lack of study when they were younger.

Anywho, otherwise it's a neat site with all sorts of data compiled.
It's just that, like my beliefs in journalism and any public text,
sites about teaching should be linguistically correct.

End rant.

20090129

Asus Eee Pc 1000HA

I read a gazillion reviews and asked around and so... Last night I
finally took the plunge and ordered an Asus Eee Pc 1000HA in
sleekandfingerprintyforsure Ebony Black. I wanted the 1000H but it
was hard to find, most places said it was either out of stock or
discontinued. But it basically added 802.11 -n- to the b/g along with
bluetooth, neither of which I can honestly say I NEED. So I ended up
with the next model down for $100 less and at a store I like to do
business with.

Other specs: Atom processor, 160GB hard drive, XP Home, three usb
ports, a VGA port, ethernet, 802.1 b/g, 10" screen, 6-cell battery
that can last "up to" 7 hours, and according to a few sites it's got
the smallest power supply available, too.

Due date is within two weeks. This will be my ninth [current] "child"
and the first new computer I'll have had since Dale enticed me to
marry him with Shady in October of 2006. The one before Shady, was
Raven, which I built in August of 2004. So, I'm definitely due for
another one.

I am very very excited. With this little doodad I can sit on the
couch, upstairs in bed, on the stairs, outside on the porch (once it
warms up), in the truck, et al and get a good 5 hours of fun time. I
can also take it with me to friends' houses and the occasional
client's when those creep back into my life (which they always do
somehow). YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

20090126

cough recipe

I *think* this works... at least, it seems to, or maybe I'm not
extremely sick so it's only coincidink.

Tight chest, bronchial intermittent cough with post nasal drip, one of
those coughs that hurts while being only slightly productive... I hate
them, because it sounds like I've got bronchitis but for such a minor
irritation it's overkill. Anywho, I discovered that this concoction
may hold it at bay:

One crushed clove of garlic
1/4 tsp cayenne
About four cloves with stems, whatever that turns out to be - crush
them coarsely
Some powdered fennel, garlic powder, salt (it was an existing blend I
had for cooking)
about 1/2 tsp mustard seed, crushed or not... I suspect crushed is
better
1/2 tsp vinegar
1-2 tsp honey
6 oz hot water

Place all of the above into a cup and stir together. Let sit about 15
minutes. Take a few sips, then sip every time you feel a cough coming
on or right after coughing. It seems to loosen the plegm a bit and
make new coughs more productive for a while, and open up airways. It
also seems to stimulate mucous. Finally, I haven't yet noticed a very
sore throat just yet from the coughing, just a bit of itchiness.
While I'm most definitely sick, it seems that it's not as bad as it
could have been.

I have a few theories as to why this recipe seems to work. First,
Cayenne Pepper improves circulation, makes your (or at least my) nose
run a bit, and is supposed to be good for mucous production overall
anyway. Garlic is an antibacterial, strengthens mucous membranes, and
overall has been a "healthy" herb anyway. Cloves have a numbing agent
in them as well as antibacterial consituents. It's long been used for
toothaches. Vinegar is another cure-all, honey is also antibacterial;
in the past I've used them half-and-half to dampen or prevent a sore
throat (burns like hell but it works if done right away).

Not sure what fennel and mustard seed do, but salt is a good cleansing
agent and helps clear the slime out of your mouth when you're sick. I
didn't want to mess with a recipe I believe works, so I left the
ingredients intact.

I figure the garlic, vinegar, honey, and cayenne are working on the
bug I've got, and the cloves and vinegar and honey are helping to keep
my throat from getting sore. The cloves, I discovered, have an added
benefit - they keep you from "tasting" the crap in the cup. I noticed
this because this last time, I didn't crush them much at all and the
stuff burned like holy ol' - well, you get the idea. Then I chewed on
a clove for a bit and next thing I knew, I couldn't taste _anything_
anymore. :D

So I stayed home from work today, I may be well enough to be there but
I don't feel very rested and I do feel irritable and by God, I bet no
one would want me around with the garlic smell anyway so I decided to
stay home and read in bed all day. It's not like I'm crucial
anymore... it's a new job where I haven't made myself totally
invaluable yet so I think I can be easy on myself just this once and
do what I'd tell anyone else who was sick. STAY HOME.

~nv

20090125

The victim

Dale's words echo my sentiments: "Once again, I found myself faced
with a bad smell. It smelled of death. So we looked around, followed
our nose and found it. It appears This APC unit must be defective. It
could not provide battery backup to save this little guy."

The little critter is pretty much in the center of the photo. If he
were still alive, perhaps he could sue APC? At any rate, may he rest
in peace.

Death hides not from mine nose

I have a really mild cold, and apparently my nose was affected last
night because I had absolutely NO problem with the garlic "tea" I was
drinking before bed. Well, this morning I made another cuppa and was
nearly blown over backward by the stench. Poor Daley-poo!! He hates
garlic!! Well, anyway, a few minutes ago, Dale called to me and asked
if my nose was working. I said, "Not sure, why," thinking perhaps I
smelled worse than last night or something and didn't know it. He
said he kept smelling "dead animal" smell.

Well, as much as I hate the smell of rotting flesh, and as much as the
mere thought of it can make me gag when my throat is already feeling
coated with slimy mucous, I can't turn down an informal invite to
define and locate the source of whatever it was he smelled. So I got
up and went to walk into his den.

I didn't get very far when I was hit with a whiff of death-aroma. I
stopped and fought a faint gag. It faded. So I told Dale he was most
definitely right - it was certainly the unmistakeable odor of death -
and then I took to hunting all over the floor, sniffing vents, behind
the entertainment center, the catnip scratch box... and only caught
the occasional whiff. Dale admitted that he smelled it more near the
floor, too, but otherwise, we were perplexed by the lack of source. I
tried to take note of any drafts that might be dragging wafts of the
stench our way, but those tests were inconclusive as the drafts were
not sufficiently strong enough to lead me. Like a bloodhound, I
scampered across the floor, holding my cough in check lest I catch a
whiff again and puke my brains out during a would-be short coughing
fit. I couldn't smell it under the couch or chair so I figured maybe
it's near Dale's desk? After all, he's still smelling it off and on,
and he's sitting there, and that's the wall where I first smelled it,
so...?

I stuck my nose in between his desk and the armoire and was greeted
with a reassuringly strong sign of death. I estimated it was likely 2
or 3 days since whatever it was fell off its mortal coil. Oh, joy.
He said, "Ok. I can look for it from here, then, thanks." But I
hadn't seen it. I wasn't satisfied with grossing myself out that
much, I wanted to know for certain as to what the source was, no
matter how heartbreaking or disgusting it might be!! He repeated
himself as I dug in behind the flags, the little foldup chair, peeking
behind the armoir, sniffing, searching, eyes piercing the dark
recesses for any sign of decay. The smell faded behind the armoir.
His desk, then.

'twas a fat little mouse, fast asleep for eternity upon his
Uninterruptible Power Supply. Just a foot from his foot, no less. It
would appear that UPSes only work for electronics, for when the little
bugger lost his life, the backup whose outlets he had so carefully
laid his tiny little body between utterly failed to generate power for
his tiny heart.

Another one bytes the dust, I'm afraid. I only hope it was a quick
death. I will say that with two hunters around, no mouse will live in
this house for very long without being a caged captive in my direct
care.

~nv

20090117

Western Rainbow

WESTERN RAINBOW
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The other day I was driving home
When I looked up for just a moment
I caught a glimpse of the setting sun
And lo!
I swore I saw a sun dog
But no!
'twas a solitary rainbow
Growing with every passing second
To the left of the sun
Over West Mountain.

I kept on driving, no camera upon me
I looked up as often as I dared
Watching the rainbow grow ever stronger
So straight!
I swore it had to be alone
So great!
The minutes passed as time grew late
The sun still bright but going down
My heart alight and dancing
Across from West Mountain.

Around a curve, and then another
Still I could not cease to wonder
Another bend, no sign of thunder
The skies!
They were the clearest I could see
My eyes
Bedazzled by the scene displayed
Could scarce believe there were no clouds
Just a hint of wispy shrouds
Caressing West Mountain.

But on the other side of Sun
Over the spot where we turned One
The other end of the wondrous rainbow
Standing proud!
My foot eased off the gas
Still no cloud!
The silence of the air, it stilled me
For God Himself had all but willed me
To see that time had stopped
Up on West Mountain.

Over our mountain where we were married
The sun surrounded by a Promise
Even though you were not there
I felt you
And called you there in spirit
To share with you
The strength and love of such beauty
So akin to what we share
The Rainbow went not unaware
For I still see it
When I gaze at West Mountain.

~nv
"A life of struggle means you quit and stagnate or fight and change."
~me

Dancing Rainbows

DANCING RAINBOWS
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It's 9 a.m.
I watch the sun stream through the window
Birds are chirping
Peace envelops me in its warmth
I lay upon my side
Your jaw at my head
My glasses pushed high
So I am partially blind
My eyes are attracted to a movement
So subtle, I surely would have missed it
Were it not for the slowing wander of my mind
And this calming peace
Surrounding me

A myriad of cellular rainbows
Softly pulsating, a natural rhythm
Dancing quietly in the light
The morning light
Travelling up the swell of hand
Slowly fading into clouds
Your hand turns ashen
I'm feeling you in 80 years
And I'm secure
For you're with me

20090113

cherokee

I'm in the midst of my first Cherokee language class, online at www.cherokee.org
... and it's pretty slow. The teacher is funny and sweet but my New
England upbringing has my mind racing past everything so fast it's too
hard to concentrate... like reigning myself in for sleep when I'm not
tired. LOL

Ooh, he's talking about chocolate... oooooooooooooooo (that's "u" in
Cherokee)

LOL LOL LOL

Now we're on the G row of the syllabary... oh my this will take a
while. LOL If I don't have this syllabary completely memorized by the
time this one class if over, just shoot me.

nv

20090112

Our Kitchen

I love our kitchen.

And... kitchen just became the weird word of the day. Funny how that
happens... you say a word your whole life and all of a sudden it feels
so ... strange. Kitchen. What an odd sound...

~nv

20090110

Family

Mum has been telling me off and on about the issues facing my cousin
and her daughter. She said my cousin's view is likely one-sided.

I agreed, because I used to feel that way back when the right side was
MY side, but now I see both sides of our story and can see why Mum's
side was the right one, too - from her perspective, that is. I mean,
I still don't full agree with her on a few things, but I can see why
she could feel the way she does about them. Well, my cousin's got her
side, but her daughter's got a side, too. From my perspective, I
could easily imagine that she's feeling good about herself right now,
staying off drugs when their pull might be so strong, and then having
a mother who still refuses to believe she's a good person inside just
because she's done some stupid things in the past. What could make it
worse is that the kid may not understand that her mom's particularly
vulnerable right now, having just lost her husband of well, a long
time. The kid could be taking her mother's words quite personally
which would do absolutely nothing for her own self-esteem. It takes a
strong person to pull out of such a cycle.

Am I talking about my cousins, or my mother and I?

Regardless, in the kid's case - I'd say that assuming she continues to
pull herself up by her bootstraps and stays off drugs, she's a damned
strong person and worthy of a second look by her own mother, at the
least.

I can also see her mother's side, though - worry that she'll lapse
back into drugs as she has before. But I know from experience that
people with bad habits can surprise the shit out of you.

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the
courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the
difference." ~Alcoholics Anonymous Serenity Prayer

~nv

Writing

I decided I missed reviewing music albums. I read a few of my old
ones for Peter and thought, Gee, I don't write like that any more. I
don't write much at all in fact... truly write, I mean, as in express
myself! So I set out to review one of Richard Marx's albums. I sat
here for over an hour struggling to find words that used to come so
effortlessly to my racing mind. I couldn't do it with any sense of
self-satisfaction, no matter how involved my heart got while I
listened to his music in an effort to help myself get "into" it.

So I started "rambling" to my blog. My favourite English teacher had
taught her classes this trick; she said that if you ever have writer's
block, just ramble on and on and eventually you'll get something good
out of it. And if not, it at least gets the juices flowing so you can
get closer to getting over the block.

I was horrified to think that the expressive side of my writing
abilities have waned so dramatically over the last few years. Even
when I didn't really feel like writing, I could still do it on command
to some extent. Now I can email people but writing poetry is a
tedious, unpleasant task that makes me want to bang my head against a
wall to let my feelings gush out in a messy brain-spilling glob. Ah!
You see? That's what I'm talking about. Perhaps my recent exercises
are helping already. I do still "have" it, but the "big words" I used
to be so good at conjuring up out of thin air have all but
disappeared. I spend more time trying to figure out the right word
for what I want to say than I do actually writing! So I will be
reading the dictionary again and every day I'll be rambling. LOL

Part of my problem, I think, is related to what I mentioned to my
mother the last time we spoke - lack of "alone" time. I think I've
failed to realize that in order to write well, I need time to myself.
Lots of it. It isn't just about getting my thoughts together and
experiencing the feeling that I once felt, whether good or bad; it's
about expression, which I can't always do in its entirety because
communication is typically verbal between Dale and I, courtesy of
warnings given me by my past counsellor. But you see, each and every
interruption breaks my thought pattern and in order to avoid feeling
annoyed I simply swallow every feeling whole lest I spout off over
nothing. I found it rather entertaining tonight because as I was
writing, and mentioned it half-heartedly, Dale still managed to
interrupt me at least four times. The last time, he came downstairs
just to make an appearance as he brushed his teeth. I ripped off my
headphones and said laughingly as I finished a string of words with my
fingers: "Of course the interruptions could be a big part of this."
He just looked at me quizzically, not having "heard" the concerns I'd
previously written on my screen, which is why I laughed as I said it.
It made me realize just how justified I am in fearing the process. I
would literally prefer to cease words altogether than have them
constantly dashed upon the bricks and scattered for me to repeatedly
pick up. Have you ever tried to pick up a little serif? Those things
are tiny enough, and damn, are they sharp!! I almost bled after
poking myself with an "A" serif.

I've mused about this, in all seriousness, for some time now and I've
come to the absolute conclusion that yes, I need to state my needs
more often. And I need to stand by them with absolute declaration.
If he's going out and invites me along after I've stated that I'm
going to stay home and do "me" things, then I need to say "No, I have
plans to write today. You go ahead." I need to remember that I have
a right to take this time for myself, and a duty, in fact, to meet
this need for myself. My mom used to do what her and I called "Four-
Year-Tantrums" and by golly, I will NOT have myself start having those
due to unexpressed emotions that are swallowed whole in an attempt to
be with my counterpart every minute of every waking hour we manage to
have off at the same time. It's unhealthy and not who I am besides.

Aight, now I'm tired and will go to bed.

~nv

I didn't know

I did not know that writing is an art form
I did not know that it took skill
I did not know that practice made me
The writer that I was back then

Now and then I sit here
I try to write that which eludes me
But the words won't really come
Just bits and pieces as I sip tea

Music helps but not that much
I can't even write reviews
With all this energy deep inside
I can only write a few

Yeah, I remember
I remember how my fingers flew
Computers couldn't keep up with me
I was cryptic even when I knew
And now I sit, my soul to bare
Laid out and open for all to feel
And cannot find a single thing
To write about that makes this real

I wanna be that writer again
I wanna be the one with so much angst
With so much to spill, so much to share
Whether good or whether bad
I want the words that I once had
Just let me feel, let me feel the pain
Let me feel the wind and rain
Let the sun spill its rays on me
Give me back those words
Those words that always set me free

This year's resolution:
Write. Write. Write.
Fight for it, my need to write.
For my expression still depends upon it.
Without my words I must depend on photographs
and photographs don't do my internal world the justice
that pen and paper always could
even when they never could

I wanna be that writer again
I wanna be the one with so much angst
With so much to spill, so much to share
Whether good or whether bad
I want the words that I once had
Just let me feel, let me feel the pain
Let me feel the wind and rain
Let the sun spill its rays on me
Give me back those words
Those words that always set me free

Yeah, stop these endless waking nights
Where 2am is when I write
Within my head I am so haunted
In my dreams, I am so taunted
Words flash by me at the speed of sound
Waves of colour all around
As I lay there helpless, my heartbeat spiking
As if I were paralyzed
All alone within my head
Unable to speak what I'm feeling
My fingers frozen in a shallow stream
The dead of winter, summer feelings
Just a trickle starts to form
And

I wanna be that writer again
I wanna be the one with so much angst
With so uch to spill, so much to share
Whether good or whether bad
I want the word that I once had
Just let me feel, let me feel the pain
Let me feel the wind and rain
Let the sun wash over me
Give me back those awesome words
The ones that always set me free
Words have always set me free

20090103

Colour

This is a pretty cool article IMHO:
http://www.webexhibits.org/causesofcolor/2B.html

"Anomalous trichromacy (where vision is based on three functioning
cone types, but one or more cone types are atypical) is by far the
most common form of colorblindness, and in many senses it is the least
severe. Its effect is to reduce the ability to discriminate between
colors, but it does not eliminate color perception altogether. People
with this form of colorblindness experience very little difficulty in
doing tasks that require color vision. Some may not even be aware that
their color perception is in any way atypical. The only problem they
have is passing color vision tests.

Under poor viewing conditions, such as when driving in dazzling
sunlight or in rainy or foggy weather, it is easily possible for
protanomalous individuals to mistake a blinking red traffic light for
a blinking yellow or amber one, or to fail to distinguish a green
traffic light from the various "white" lights in store fronts, signs,
and street lights. The dimming can be so pronounced that reds may be
confused with black or dark gray, and red traffic lights may appear to
be extinguished.

Dichromats (those with vision based on two functioning cone types) on
the other hand, can be so severely color deficient as to affect their
daily lives. The real problem, for protanopes (absence of L-cone),
deuteranopes (absence of M-cone) and tritanopes (absence of S-cone),
is there are far too many color names and no obvious basis for using
one instead of another. Why call something "orange" when it doesn't
look different in any way from something else called green, tan,
beige, or any of several other color names?

For the protanope, red, orange, yellow, yellow-green, and green,
appear somewhat shifted toward green in hue, and all appear paler than
they do to the average observer. Protanopes may learn to distinguish
reds from yellows and from greens primarily on the basis of their
apparent brightness or lightness, rather than any perceptible hue
difference. Violet, lavender, and purple are indistinguishable from
various shades of blue because their reddish components are so dimmed
as to be invisible. Pink flowers, reflecting both red light and blue
light, may appear blue to the protanope. In the pictures below, the
orange flowers completely disappear.

The deutanope suffers the same hue discrimination problems as the
protanope, but without the dimming. The names red, orange, yellow, and
green mean very little. Similarly, violet, lavender, purple, and blue
appear to be the same color. In the pictures below, the orange flowers
completely disappear.

Tritanopes can have difficulty distinguishing green, cyan, and blue.
Tritanopes can also have problems distinguishing yellow from violet.
They can have pink, orange, and brown confusions. In the picture
below, the orange and pink flowers look the same."

Cool stuff...

tea, cats, and androgyny

I have just found myself momentarily entranced by a jack-of-all-trade
interests-type personality that, for the most part, I fail to notice
on a daily basis but nonetheless still intrigues me with a fair bit of
regularity.

That personality, of course, would be mine.

Dale and I just brought home a bread-making machine. It's a nice
brushed stainless-like finish on the outside with a little pan inside
where the bread is created. Dale's mom asked what we were up to so I
went ahead and wrote about it in my email to her moments ago.

At the end of the email I added, "I need more tea." She will
understand this far more readily than any casual reader, so let me
explain. On New Year's Day, Mary, Dale, and I visited a crowded
little tea shop where we sat at a tiny table luminated by heavily
filtered daylight, a tiny wall lamp reminiscent of a miniature
artist's light, and the soft glow of candlelight on people's faces.

I had something called "Da hong pao." In English, it apparently means
something like "Big Red Robe Tea." It was decently fragrant but oh
my, the taste brought forth memories of my first loose-tea samplings.
It went very well with the delectable Baklava set before me. I licked
my fingers of the honey and ended up drinking three infusions of that
awesome tea. So it stood to reason that upon our departure, I bought
four ounces of the stuff. I had a gift certificate, after all!

Last night watched four cups of the stuff make it into my system. I
woke up at 2am to expunge some of it and even in my sleepy stupour, my
mind could recall "The Longest Pee" by Adam Sandler. Just five hours
later, I found myself in that little room all over again. They're not
kidding when they say tea can be a diuretic, but do I ever learn?
No. So throughout today I've tossed back four more cups. Ever wired
was I this morning, running around the house with my mind racing
faster than a greyhound!

Like most things I obsess over, I... well, I can, admittedly, become
pretty obsessed for a time. This is why that ending - I need more tea
- had more meaning than its apparent face value.

Thus stands my explanation for that, but I return now to the original
statement regarding a jack-of-all-interests personality.

As I ended my email to Mary, I realized with a start that I have been
on extremes all day. I started out wired and energetic; was geeky
enough to chat online with a few people at once while simultaneously
learning a new program (not exactly hard but nonetheless!); focused on
gardening and herbs for a while; studied a bit of Cherokee; cooked and
cleaned around the geeky behaviour; cleaned up after the rats; looked
forward to trying out some tennis; enjoyed a joke about whether a guy
is gay or not (Dale likes cats... hmmm... Dale, is there something
you're not telling me? haha); and then I found myself reading about
androgyny and thinking back on how Mum used to study psychology and
try to engage me in conversation about it.

Aight, big whup... still, I felt like writing. Now my attention is on
making some bread. LOL

~nv