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20090110

I didn't know

I did not know that writing is an art form
I did not know that it took skill
I did not know that practice made me
The writer that I was back then

Now and then I sit here
I try to write that which eludes me
But the words won't really come
Just bits and pieces as I sip tea

Music helps but not that much
I can't even write reviews
With all this energy deep inside
I can only write a few

Yeah, I remember
I remember how my fingers flew
Computers couldn't keep up with me
I was cryptic even when I knew
And now I sit, my soul to bare
Laid out and open for all to feel
And cannot find a single thing
To write about that makes this real

I wanna be that writer again
I wanna be the one with so much angst
With so much to spill, so much to share
Whether good or whether bad
I want the words that I once had
Just let me feel, let me feel the pain
Let me feel the wind and rain
Let the sun spill its rays on me
Give me back those words
Those words that always set me free

This year's resolution:
Write. Write. Write.
Fight for it, my need to write.
For my expression still depends upon it.
Without my words I must depend on photographs
and photographs don't do my internal world the justice
that pen and paper always could
even when they never could

I wanna be that writer again
I wanna be the one with so much angst
With so much to spill, so much to share
Whether good or whether bad
I want the words that I once had
Just let me feel, let me feel the pain
Let me feel the wind and rain
Let the sun spill its rays on me
Give me back those words
Those words that always set me free

Yeah, stop these endless waking nights
Where 2am is when I write
Within my head I am so haunted
In my dreams, I am so taunted
Words flash by me at the speed of sound
Waves of colour all around
As I lay there helpless, my heartbeat spiking
As if I were paralyzed
All alone within my head
Unable to speak what I'm feeling
My fingers frozen in a shallow stream
The dead of winter, summer feelings
Just a trickle starts to form
And

I wanna be that writer again
I wanna be the one with so much angst
With so uch to spill, so much to share
Whether good or whether bad
I want the word that I once had
Just let me feel, let me feel the pain
Let me feel the wind and rain
Let the sun wash over me
Give me back those awesome words
The ones that always set me free
Words have always set me free

20090103

Colour

This is a pretty cool article IMHO:
http://www.webexhibits.org/causesofcolor/2B.html

"Anomalous trichromacy (where vision is based on three functioning
cone types, but one or more cone types are atypical) is by far the
most common form of colorblindness, and in many senses it is the least
severe. Its effect is to reduce the ability to discriminate between
colors, but it does not eliminate color perception altogether. People
with this form of colorblindness experience very little difficulty in
doing tasks that require color vision. Some may not even be aware that
their color perception is in any way atypical. The only problem they
have is passing color vision tests.

Under poor viewing conditions, such as when driving in dazzling
sunlight or in rainy or foggy weather, it is easily possible for
protanomalous individuals to mistake a blinking red traffic light for
a blinking yellow or amber one, or to fail to distinguish a green
traffic light from the various "white" lights in store fronts, signs,
and street lights. The dimming can be so pronounced that reds may be
confused with black or dark gray, and red traffic lights may appear to
be extinguished.

Dichromats (those with vision based on two functioning cone types) on
the other hand, can be so severely color deficient as to affect their
daily lives. The real problem, for protanopes (absence of L-cone),
deuteranopes (absence of M-cone) and tritanopes (absence of S-cone),
is there are far too many color names and no obvious basis for using
one instead of another. Why call something "orange" when it doesn't
look different in any way from something else called green, tan,
beige, or any of several other color names?

For the protanope, red, orange, yellow, yellow-green, and green,
appear somewhat shifted toward green in hue, and all appear paler than
they do to the average observer. Protanopes may learn to distinguish
reds from yellows and from greens primarily on the basis of their
apparent brightness or lightness, rather than any perceptible hue
difference. Violet, lavender, and purple are indistinguishable from
various shades of blue because their reddish components are so dimmed
as to be invisible. Pink flowers, reflecting both red light and blue
light, may appear blue to the protanope. In the pictures below, the
orange flowers completely disappear.

The deutanope suffers the same hue discrimination problems as the
protanope, but without the dimming. The names red, orange, yellow, and
green mean very little. Similarly, violet, lavender, purple, and blue
appear to be the same color. In the pictures below, the orange flowers
completely disappear.

Tritanopes can have difficulty distinguishing green, cyan, and blue.
Tritanopes can also have problems distinguishing yellow from violet.
They can have pink, orange, and brown confusions. In the picture
below, the orange and pink flowers look the same."

Cool stuff...

tea, cats, and androgyny

I have just found myself momentarily entranced by a jack-of-all-trade
interests-type personality that, for the most part, I fail to notice
on a daily basis but nonetheless still intrigues me with a fair bit of
regularity.

That personality, of course, would be mine.

Dale and I just brought home a bread-making machine. It's a nice
brushed stainless-like finish on the outside with a little pan inside
where the bread is created. Dale's mom asked what we were up to so I
went ahead and wrote about it in my email to her moments ago.

At the end of the email I added, "I need more tea." She will
understand this far more readily than any casual reader, so let me
explain. On New Year's Day, Mary, Dale, and I visited a crowded
little tea shop where we sat at a tiny table luminated by heavily
filtered daylight, a tiny wall lamp reminiscent of a miniature
artist's light, and the soft glow of candlelight on people's faces.

I had something called "Da hong pao." In English, it apparently means
something like "Big Red Robe Tea." It was decently fragrant but oh
my, the taste brought forth memories of my first loose-tea samplings.
It went very well with the delectable Baklava set before me. I licked
my fingers of the honey and ended up drinking three infusions of that
awesome tea. So it stood to reason that upon our departure, I bought
four ounces of the stuff. I had a gift certificate, after all!

Last night watched four cups of the stuff make it into my system. I
woke up at 2am to expunge some of it and even in my sleepy stupour, my
mind could recall "The Longest Pee" by Adam Sandler. Just five hours
later, I found myself in that little room all over again. They're not
kidding when they say tea can be a diuretic, but do I ever learn?
No. So throughout today I've tossed back four more cups. Ever wired
was I this morning, running around the house with my mind racing
faster than a greyhound!

Like most things I obsess over, I... well, I can, admittedly, become
pretty obsessed for a time. This is why that ending - I need more tea
- had more meaning than its apparent face value.

Thus stands my explanation for that, but I return now to the original
statement regarding a jack-of-all-interests personality.

As I ended my email to Mary, I realized with a start that I have been
on extremes all day. I started out wired and energetic; was geeky
enough to chat online with a few people at once while simultaneously
learning a new program (not exactly hard but nonetheless!); focused on
gardening and herbs for a while; studied a bit of Cherokee; cooked and
cleaned around the geeky behaviour; cleaned up after the rats; looked
forward to trying out some tennis; enjoyed a joke about whether a guy
is gay or not (Dale likes cats... hmmm... Dale, is there something
you're not telling me? haha); and then I found myself reading about
androgyny and thinking back on how Mum used to study psychology and
try to engage me in conversation about it.

Aight, big whup... still, I felt like writing. Now my attention is on
making some bread. LOL

~nv

20081222

Leopard rant on cut and paste

I love macs, but there are a few inherent annoyances from a Windows
user perspective.

Cut and paste a file is one of them.

I can not tell you the number of times I have sat here, completely
inundated with sheer frustration over trying to drag a couple of files
from one place to another in order to move them. Typically I go to
drag them, and the highlighting goes away so I have to REhighlight
them and then very gently ease the mouse off the files and into the
folder so they actually go this time. DAMMIT!! Tonight is even
worse, because I want to drag and drop and get this... you click and
drag, and pull down, and you know what? It doesn't scroll to the
folder at the bottom of the pile, out of sight. So, I have to open
two Finder windows of the same damned thing to get them in there.

To pile more crap into my OS and potentially slow it down (everyone
knows you want to slow your OS down) I installed QuickSilver. The
premise was that you can create a workaround for cut and paste. I
couldn't figure out until I ran through the instructions for real by
actually doing them. You want to know how? You don't.

I want: Right-click a file, or control-click, whichever, and click
"CUT" or "MOVE."
Then: Right-click a folder, and click "paste" or "move here."

Currently OS X Leopard only does "copy" which is completely useless
because I don't WANT a gazillion copies cluttering my hard drive. I
want ONE with the exception of the Time Machine backups on the external.

Rant over. I'm gonna go cuss and swear while I use two finders.

Moral of the story: Put things in the right place when you first get
them. Otherwise, OS X will punish you.

Apple: I love your products and overall consider them a vast
improvement over much of your competition's efforts. However, some
very basic functionality such as outlined above would be nice for
those of us who LIKE to be organized and not depend on Finder all the
time.

~nv

20081221

green efficient geek

Heh, this struck my funny bone. I just responded to an email from
Dale's mom and at the end I had a thought for Dale so I mentioned it
there since I did a "respond to all" and he was included in that.

So I mentioned my thought to him and then said:

[you might be a green efficient geek if you email your next-room-over-
husband within a response to his mom's email]

First, it's funny for the aforementioned reason - conserving a couple
small keystrokes, my voice, a few steps, all by emailing within an
email. Second, I thought, "Gee, this also saves a small amount of
server space!" and then started laughing when I began to say "you
might be a green efficient..." because NOW I'm taking up more server
space than if I'd simply done another email - as you can see, I'm now
emailing my blog with more text than ever surmised with two simple
emails. Or with one email and a quick jog over the stairs.

But, in the event that my family or whomever reads this blog actually
finds it amusing, perhaps it was worth it - a tiny smile is better
than none and worth far more than a few KB of server space.

In the meantime, "Hazard" by Richard Marx is on, and I just had the
creepy crawlies go up my spine as he belted out "I /think/ about my
life gone by..." At the concert last March, I recall him saying that
his wife thought Hazard was a good song and he'd be nuts to not do it,
so he did it despite his own thoughts on it. "I hate it when she's
right," he grumbled, much to the amusement of the audience. I can't
believe someone as talented as Richard Marx could have actually
thought to NOT do that song. Good thing he paired up with that girl.
LOL Now, if he would just release "Blood In My Veins" or whatever he
calls it, that would rock. I suspect I'd have a lot of writing to do
if I had that song to listen to.

~nv

20081213

Precision M6400 Covet

Yesterday my M6400 arrived for me at work.

I waited four weeks for this.

First impression: Bright orange. My eyes!! My eyes!!
Second impression: Holy God this thing is heavy
Third impression: Ooooh... perty... and it looks like there's some
battery juice already!!
Fourth impression: Ooooh!! Backlit keyboard!!!!
From there, I appreciated the glass screen, the tactile
responsiveness of the touchpad, and the pretty blue colours as well as
the slot-loading DVD-RW.
I also began noticing that the way the touchpad was moved over to stay
centered with the alpha portion of the keyboard made it so my left
hand is dug into by the corner of the laptop. It's got quite the
square edge on it.

I brought it home and played with it some more. The PSU weighs almost
as much as my UPS does, but I discovered an unexpected benefit to
having a 10 amp psu to lug around: You can put your cold feet on it
and it's toasty warm. So I lowered my home office chair, put my feet
on the PSU, and the laptop (which is wider than me) kept my lap warm.
I was as snug as a bug in a rug with the exception of the fact the
laptop's so heavy that after a couple hours, my left knee beging to
get annoyed with my ergonomic decisions. Whups. But I didn't have
any intentions of sitting that way in the first place at work, and I
wasn't intending to use it AS a laptop most of the time. MY intention
was to let it sit in its docking station at my desk 99 percent of the
time. I might bring it home only on special occasions, or if I get
sent away for training... Yeah. Otherwise, it sits.

Anywho, I digress. Google Desktop (specifically, gadgets, although
I'm still not sure if this is Vista or Google or a combination) is
pretty cool. Windows version of the Mac's "dashboard." I like the
notepad and the tasklist the best. The weather is nice.

My laptop has 4GB of RAM and 2.54GHz core 2 duo. I ordered with Vista
Ultimate 32 bit preinstalled so I've been playing with that.

I spent three hours with it this morning trying to get the boot time
from 1m 20s to under 30s. A guy at work told me he once got his
laptop (Vista, different model laptop though) down to 17s. I clocked
my BIOS boot at between 8 and 12 seconds, probably closer to 8, so
despite a desire to beat his number I didn't hold high aspirations,
but I admit I did feel a pull to attempt it anyway. I also don't know
if he started with a clean install, or a pre-installed version.
Obviously there could be differences there. And, which version of
Vista? Business or Ultimate? So for the most part, I decided to see
what I could do on my own for my particular situation. If I happened
to beat his number, great. LOL

First and foremost, I grabbed Process Explorer and Autoruns off the
'net and began disabling the obvious crap - bloatware, etc. Over the
course of 2 hours I got it down to 48 seconds. The shutdown time was
19 seconds, mostly. Then I installed Tweak UI, which I'd never tried
before. They make it for Vista now. I used the f/w version. With
that, I got it down to only 38 seconds. But there was a problem.
Shutdown started taking 1 minute 47 seconds!! I rebooted at least
five times and kept seeing it over and over. It was relentless. So I
undid my changes by using the snapshots I'd taken. NO CHANGE. So I
used the system restore point I'd made. THAT was interesting... the
shutdown went to between 16 and 21 seconds (mostly 19 again) and yet
the boot time remained at 38 seconds. I uninstalled Tweak UI and
tried a few more times. The same.

Then I readded my touchpad and a few small items from Dell and the
numbers have not changed.

Other than poking around services and such, which I'm not familiar
with on Vista yet and don't feel like spending hours researching just
for a few more potential seconds, I'd say I'm done.

Anywho, that's all on that for now... except... I want to add that I'm
amazed at the time it takes to open IE after logging in. It takes all
of four seconds after entering your password to get to a point where
you can launch something from the QL bar. I also can launch from the
run command in maybe six seconds.

AND I discovered that it can start itself up every weekday morning for
me, too. I like that... :)

~nv

20081210

Cow Tax

I just found out that the EPA is trying to get some bill put in that
taxes cows. $175 per dairy cow per year, $87 per beef cow, plus some
smaller amount per hog. The intent is to help control methane
emissions.

Yeah, by having farmers kill off all their animals so they can survive
on grass themselves.

I say they might as well try to tax farts while they're at it. Trans-
Orifice Ozone Turbulences (as defined by the Royal Canadian Air Farce)
are responsible for a lot of methane in our atmosphere, you know.
They could segregate TOOTers and non-TOOTers into separate sections in
restaurants and other public places, beans would be labelled with a
TOOT factor of 10 while bread would get 2, and pudding shall be
outlawed so it must be made in large steins in people's basements and
shared amongst the addicted criminals who still make it anyway.

While we're at it, let's build houses out of cars and grow a giant
beanstalk into the methane clouds to see if Jack lives up there.
Isn't methane green? It's a greenhouse gas, right? Maybe it's Jack
who's doing all the real TOOTing and we only THINK it's the cows.

Pardon my methane mouth, but folks looking to fuck over one of the
hardest-working types of people on earth should get a shellacked
cowpie shoved up their wanker rather than the overflow of cash they'd
be generating for themselves by acting like white supremacists looking
out for the better good of us poor stupid idiots.

~nv

20081206

low speed internet

I was just writing back to Michelle about a product we've been
researching. I did some of the research knowing full well that her
internet connection is DIALUP. Yes, DIALUP. GAH!! So I sent her the
info and etc and so forth. But as I just closed my email to her a few
moments ago, I wrote "you low speed internet people you" and almost
added, "Yanno I would have come up with Dale last night but egads, I
can't live without my internet connection!"

I didn't write that, but I jokingly thought it. Truth be told, I've
lived days without a connection in the past couple years. It wasn't
easy but I made it through just fine. So I wouldn't never say "I
can't spend the night up there without a high-speed 'net connection."

Still, I could easily picture that scenario. Low-speed internet (or
lack of any net connection whatsoever) could theoretically be deemed a
social issue. "No net? We won't visit." Hahahaha, lol. Funny...
man, I feel for those two, though. Apparently they can't even GET
high-speed there.

I'd move.

~nv

Christmas is coming

And with it, I have both excitement and questions.

Excitement: Giving all the gifts I've found for people. Spending
time with family. Eating. Watching Dale's eyes light up as we turn
on the tree for the first time this year. Taking pictures. Watching
the cats play with the cloth-covered balls.

Not so exciting: TRYING to find gifts for people (some are hard to
buy for!). Going out in the cold to get the tree. Keeping the cats
away from the cloth-covered balls. LOL. Driving so far to SEE the
family.

Downright questionable: Wrapping gifts in paper that will then be
ripped to shreds and thrown in a landfill. The bags of trash on the
side of the street. Potentially getting gifts that I will treasure
due to whom they're from yet will never get used or will keep taking
up space and/or cluttering up the house. Killing a tree so we can
enjoy it inside for a few weeks, then toss it. The commercialism
that's so prevalent around the holidays.

The funny thing is that these days I'd rather have a nice visit with
family than receive gifts from them. Not to say I don't LIKE gifts,
but why must we concentrate gift-giving into one or two special days
each year? (Birthdays are the other, but those are far less obvious
to everyone so sometimes you can slip past folks and they'll never
know they "should" get you something.) Dale's mom has the right idea
- she sees something she thinks we'd like and she gets it then and
there. The only problem with that is that then she STILL feels the
need to shower us at Christmastime, too. She's just a really giving
person. Me, I can find things for her really easily because she likes
just about everything. Dale's reasonably easy, too. But for everyone
else I wander around going, "Is that them? Is that them? Would they
like that? Dammit, why can't they just spell out what they want?!"

I have a wishlist to make it easier for people who are caught in the
same sort of situation. Surprises are nice, but I know how it feels
to not be sure if someone likes your taste or just their taste. Such
a guessing game...

Anywho, the paper thing, though, that's really bothering me. I
presume it's intended to not just make things pretty, but to separate
gifts so there's a nice surprise when you finally get to what's
beneath. After all, duct-taping around the gift is intended to be
fun. I know. I've done it. But wrapping should either be banned or
downright merciless. It's such a waste of our earth's resources. And
so is gift-giving for the sheer sake of giving because it's Christmas
time.

Hm. I just thought of something I can get my mother, though. I can't
mention what in case she reads this... LOL

~nv

20081205

Outlook 2007

I realize it's almost 2009 and I'm JUST getting to use this, but OMG
it's so cool. If you flag an email, it plops it into your "to do"
list. Way customizable, too. I love it. But I'm at work so this
must stay short. :)

~nv

20081128

Photo shoot

Looks like a christmas tree to me, with a Cross on the top. What
people come up with when faced with a magnetic sculpture kit...

20081126

correction on photo/movie destruction

I think I just said I got rid of 10-15 GB of pics and movies... but
that's not true. It's gotta be at least 15, and then some. That's
because I was at 31GB free on my hard drive, and now I'm up to 46GB.
While I was cleaning up, I also emptied five 2GB camera cards. That's
close to 10GB of pictures I dumped on there, so the number's probably
closer to 20GB!!! I'm GOOD!!!!

Which is also scary... super scary... that I can have that much work
for my camera. Yikes!!

~w

DUST!

I've realized something again: Black products, out in the open, are
NOT conducive to a dustless appearance.

They do, however, promote dusting.

Nonetheless, that black stove of ours is NOT getting replaced by
another black product. Cream, White, Taupe, I don't care - but
nothing so dark so as to show every scratch, splatter, and speck of
dust ever created in a kitchen. It's just not right. (Of course,
whoever owned it before didn't exactly take great care of it, either,
so perhaps that's compounding my disdain.)

Oh, and I've also realized something else. Owning (or, more
accurately, paying mortgage on) a house that's large enough to
comfortably put things in seems to keep my messier habits at bay.
Having company over fairly frequently (once every month or two) also
helps. By company, I don't mean Paul. Paul knows I'm a slob so I
seldom neaten for his visits. Heck, I've got pictures of he and I
working on computers... it ain't pretty! Besides, I've seen his
apartment. Ha.

Anywho, tonight, some of our family is coming down to spend the night
so we can all have Thanksgiving together. So for the past two hours
I've dusted, wiped down, washed, trashed, rearranged, shredded, and
put things away. I could likely make an entire day of this but
somehow it's already significantly better, probably because of the new
vacuum. (New vacuum = new toy for me to play with = things get in my
way = I pick them up so I can vacuum. Tricksy, huh?)

I also realized that I still have too many clothes and need to give
more away. This was caused by taste changes over the years - but only
in part. The biggest taste change I've had is NOT having static
electricity coursing through my body, which is hard to control in the
winter months. So anything intended for winter that is polyester is
outta here unless for some crazy reason I absolutely cannot part with
it. I console myself with the sheer number of unwanted and unused
articles with the fact that many of them were in the single digit
dollar range.

Seems to me that the more often I simply stand up and walk around,
pretending I'm walking into my own house for the first time, the more
often I clean, consolidate, rearrange, neaten, and throw stuff out.
So maybe I'll just start doing that more often. LOL.

One last thing... I killed off about 12GB of photos and movies last
night. W00t!! I'm on a roll this week!!!!! Now if I could just
finish the iPhoto organization, get another external firewire drive,
and reorganize every file I can find onto ONE medium (okay, two,
because of the backup drive I'd mirror it with)... that would be
good... the thing in my way there though is cost. LOL

~w

20081123

Awesome pictures!!!

Really really cool!!! I'm including two of the images in the article
in case the article disappears... These were taken by someone named
Brian Valentine, and featured on Mail Online: "It's incredible what
you can find in an ordinary garden if you look closely enough.
Amateur photographer Brian Valentine specialises in making the
everyday look exotic with the wonders of macro photography, using
special lens to magnify his subjects."

The direct link to the site is:
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-471914/A-drop-magic-Amazing-pictures-flowers-captured-drop-rain.html

20081011

cold?

I hope not, but it's felt off and on all day like I was beginning to
come down with a cold or something.

This evening upon returning home from work, it /really/ began to
concern me. I could feel it crawling around inside my nostrils and
sections of my throat. I felt irritable and tired despite a strong
desire to neaten up the house. And I /was/ exposed to /something/ a
few weeks ago, which I found out today has also attacked a colleague.

So, I went off in search of http://www.lionsgrip.com/cobyourself.html
and http://www.whfoods.com to "remember" which foods I should be
focusing on. Once I found them, I realized how much I wanted them:
Liver, onions, molasses, wheat germ, etc. I threw some liver and
onions in a fry pan with some butter and then realized I wanted a
scrambled egg, too, in a bit of olive oil. So, I threw that in. Then
I thought, "Might as well make this a full-fledged meal" and tossed in
some frozen veggies - onions and peppers - from a bag. I also
sprinkled in a bit of chili pepper and "chicken rub" for a bit of
added flavour.

OMG, delish. I had *no* idea how yummy this would turn out.

Hopefully, this plethora of vitamins will stamp out the cold that is
trying to take over my body. Now I'm going to go to bed...

YAY!!!

I have my address book back!! I should probably "back up" a few other
items as well but for now, this is what I needed and wanted the most.

After redoing Shady, I'd lost that, because I couldn't for some reason
get my profile to copy over into Leopard. But I was experience-smart
and had backed everything up twice over. So I booted from my external
firewire backup of the old OS X with all its stuff, and opened
AddressBook, and backed it up. Then I rebooted into the NEW OS X and
double-clicked that file. Presto! It dumped everything into the new,
empty, lonesome AB.

Now if only Citrix was easy like that. I'm working on a problem for
someone with one of those evil password manager issues. Gack.

20080915

Epitome of Efficiency

I'm the epitome of efficiency. I'm in the process of cleaning up and
revamping my iMac, Shady. Last night I did two full bootable backups
to separate firewire disks. Then this morning I clean-installed
Leopard (I had Tiger). Currently I'm waiting for my user profile to
copy back over, which seems to take over three hours. Not surprising
since it insisted upon copying EVERYTHING related to my user profile -
including all the pictures, docs, etc. So, I decided I'd simply move
stuff off afterward, since I now can't move stuff on a backup do to
permissions (even though I created the same exact account name
GAHHH!!).

Anywho, knowing it was going to be a while and I had stuff to do, I
opted to let it go while I did other things. So: I set Shady for
migration, then prepared to leave. I mailed something on my way out
the door, walked to the town office, paid water
bill, came up with video idea for a song whilst in the park for a few
minutes, returned home, showered, robed, called the vet, called about
getting a massage, and finally called this auto car starter dude.
Then I wrote much of all this to Dale at work, went and dressed, found
toast and tea, and am writing this now. I thought I had only ten
minutes left of the profile copy, but now it's doing the actual
documents and so it thinks it's 58 minutes now. Hmph.

Once done, I can set myself to do the REAL work, since I've done
everything else on my list for today. I should patent myself... in
the meantime, I'm going to go read since I have a stack of books to
either finish or start. I might go out on the porch for that, since
it's beautiful and breezy outside today and not hot at all. I was out
there playing in the sandbox while I waited for my toast and didn't
see one single skeeter, either.

Hm. Still at 58 minutes. It might be shorter than I think [i.e.,
it's really counting down but isn't displaying that, so suddenly it'll
just go POOF done]... or, something's wrong, or it has no concept of
time and it could be a few days. Oh well, off I go, then. Watched
pot never boils, as they say. LOL

~w

20080908

When Turkeys Can Fly!

I was driving down the road today and saw this huge flock of brown
birds on my side of the street, some in the street, some right next
to it. It looked like they'd just crossed and were going in the same
direction I was. I slowed down and they noticed me, so they began a-
runnin'. Next thing I knew, a few were airborne!! I knew they could
fly /some/ but what then followed was the rest of them. They
actually flew up in front of me and alighted in some trees!! I
didn't know they could fly THAT well. And then, I rounded the corner
and saw one more soaring ahead of me. I followed it momentarily and
then it disappeared on me.

Pretty amazing sight, that. Just wanted to share!

~nv

20080907

Bunny Church

Hehheh, no idea just how serious this is, but it's cute.  In all truth, many of their professed beliefs mirror my own, only I haven't attempted to picture God as a cute fuzzy wuzzy little bunny.  But, who are we to say what God would look like to another species?  I've always felt other creatures besides us humans must have some sort of spiritual awareness.  And further, I've always held a strong belief that no religion is truly wrong in all its beliefs - that any time you have someone believing in at least one "god," you've got one interpretation of _the_ Creator.

Anywho, here's the site.  At least if anyone does take it seriously and go out and does demonstrations, it'll be cute.

20080901

Mountain's Morning

As you may know, Dale's an outdoorsy hiking type. I like hiking,
too, when the conditions are just right - few bugs and cool weather.
In other words, rarely. When Dale suggested that we camp out on our
beloved West Mountain so we could catch the sunrise, I was excited -
I'd been wanting to do just that! But that was over a month ago, and
idealism is strong when a concept is conceived.

So when we realized we both had Labor Day to ourselves, we decided to
hike up Sunday night. I was eager at first but as the time drew
near, I realized I had a lot of qualms about it. What if someone was
partying up there? What if I couldn't carry everything I needed?
What if the mosquitoes were too thick? What if it got too hot/cold?
But Dale's eyes were brimming with excitement, albeit weary, as if he
sensed I wasn't quite as excited anymore. So I packed and took every
measure possible to avoid getting eaten by mosquitoes. Then I threw
my camera bag over my shoulder and off we went. I wasn't about to
disappoint Dale, and he wasn't about to go without me, either. I
know him. He comes up with awesome photographic ideas anyway, and
this was one I knew would be good. And, if I didn't go, he /would/
go up without me, and I'd walk home, heavily disappointed in myself
and feeling mildly abandoned. No, I /would/ go up there, bugs or no.

So, about a quarter way to the path up the mountain, Dale told me I
was doing great and we were already half way there. I laughed, my
legs already burning from the slight incline on the road!! But I was
still determined. Lack of air may have tempted me to turn back at
that point. The thought of the bugs was /still/ tempting me. But
burning legs? No. Still, on the last stretch of road where it was
even steeper, I started having second thoughts again. I began
voicing my prediction on how many skeeters would be up there, as they
were already buzzing around me now - even though, thus far, my
makeshift skeeter-proof clothing seemed to be an impenetrable - if
hot - fortress. Queries Dale: "Do you want me to run ahead so the
tent can be set up and you can get inside away from the mosquitoes?
No need for you to rush, you can slow down, you know." Bless him,
but... "No," I told him, explaining, "I need to keep going and push
myself before I change my mind and turn back." "Okay," he says. One
of the attributes I hold most dear is his ability to understand my
mood and somehow - knowingly or not - act accordingly without my
asking. He fell silent and plodded on with me as if letting me
concentrate. Perhaps he simply had nothing more to say but it
happens so frequently...

I pondered on this somewhat, which took my mind off "the burn" and
the fact I was indeed beginning to get winded. Suddenly, though, I
realized how tired I was. Dale asked if I wanted to rest. "No, I
want to make it to the first third," I told him. "You mean the first
junction?" he asked. "Yeah-- oh!" I exclaimed, realizing we'd just
reached it! The first third (as I call it) was easier than I'd
expected!! My energy returned, and I finally established myself on
the trail after a brief rest. It was growing dim. We made it
through the second "third," too. I was sure of myself more than
ever. And, finally, we were at the top, lickety-split. I was tired
again, but accomplished. But stopping made me painfully aware of the
swarms all around us. "neeeeeeeeeeeeee!" says the skeeters. "Bugger
off!" says me. Dale quickly set up our tent. I helped in between
swats and was surprised that even though they were all over me, they
weren't biting! Dale was covered in them, though. I tried to work
faster and ignore the whining of the little monsters.

Finally, we were inside the tent. We killed two or three uninvited
skeeters and a few tiny flies of some sort, then unpacked our bedding
and played cards by the light of our headlamps. Then we read for a
bit. I was a bit jumpy, and kept worrying that we'd be killed in our
sleep or something every time some random noise could be heard. The
sound of 4-wheelers scared me for a couple hours, but no one ever
came to our little sanctuary despite my imagination. Dale fell
asleep as I silently talked to myself in my head. "Yeah, things can
happen to people like us in places like this. But honestly. The
number of people that are NOT bothered in such places far exceeds
those that are attacked. Those people out there are simply
partying. They won't even come out this far." Eventually I started
boring myself with intentionally vague thoughts about colours and the
book I'd been reading. Finally, I fell asleep.

The sound of a struggling vehicle woke me up again. I listened
intently as my heart thundered in my ears, Dale snored, and the
leaves rustled in the breeze, trying to determine the location of the
vehicle. Then it stopped, and I heard a few doors shut. Laughing
punctuated the breeze, stopping my heart with each syllable. It
seemed to be coming closer but I wasn't sure. I couldn't see
anything - no flashlights, flames, or headlights. Nonetheless, I
woke up Dale in case they got even closer and could then hear us.
"Pssssst, Dale," I said, shaking him gently. No response. "Dale!"
I whispered fiercely. "Wake up!" "Eh?" he says, and to my chagrin,
begins rustling his covers so loudly I could scarcely breathe; I knew
it was crazy, but I thought we'd be dead within minutes, having
alerted the owner of the laughter to our presence and thus attracting
some fatal group of murderers to our location, all because /he had to
have a rustly sleeping bag... gahhhhh!/ Finally, he quieted and
listened with me. Shortly after the next laugh, which was about the
same distance as before, I heard his breathing get heavy again.
"Damn!" I thought inwardly, not wanting to wake him for fear he'd go
through the rustling again. I began coming up with scenarios as I
heard the laughing come and go on the breeze. The peeps come up and
start a fire just a few yards from us, and never see us at all.
Cool, I like that one, even though it means I'll still be scared
until they leave. Or! What if they're partying over there, and the
dude comes over to pee in the woods and bumps right into our tent,
collapsing on top of us? Even if they were all friendly, that would
still be quite a shock. Or what if they kicked us out of our tent
because they wanted to get away from the skeeters, and /we/ were left
stumbling down the mountain in the dark trying to escape? What if
they were drunk and dragged our tent - with us still in it - off the
edge of the cliff just for fun? What if they felt like beating on
someone? What if I got raped and Dale was beaten to death? What if
they slit our throats?! OMG I watch way too much CSI!! I thought as
my heart grew louder and louder. For a moment I thought I was going
to have a heart attack, and tried vainly to stop thinking. But what
if --

Oh my God, I thought with another jump out of my skin. The car just
started. Wait! The car just started!! They're leaving. They're
leaving!! "I guess they weren't that close after all," I whispered
over the roar of my blood, and Dale responded with another snore. My
heart continued heaving adrenaline through my capillaries. I
snickered at myself and wondered what time it was, how much longer
I'd have to keep watch (for I surely couldn't sleep now) before
daylight - and perceived safety - were to blanket us with relief.

It came faster than I'd expected. Somehow, as I lay there pondering,
I fell asleep and did not wake again until shortly before daybreak.
When I did wake up again, we were most definitely alone. It felt
peaceful. I listened to the crickets trilling their mating songs. I
listened to the trees rustling overhead and jumped only slightly at
the little thunks of debris falling upon our overnight home. The
occasional vehicle could be heard in the distance. We were safe. A
brief flutter of a thought was that perhaps we were NOT alone.
Perhaps we had company that was merely asleep, and I'd somehow slept
through their arrival. But no, I thought, not even trying to
reassure myself. There isn't anyone. We're alone. I can feel it.
I don't need to convince myself, now. I know it. I smiled in the
dim glow of dawn. We made it. /I/ made it!

Just then, as if to finish waking me up from a nightmare, Dale's
morning alarm went off. He woke up and I handed it to him so he
could ensure I'd shut it off properly. We ventured outside to
relieve ourselves and I got bit on the thigh by a mosquito in the
process. (Damn them!! They're such irritating little
opportunists!!) Donning my superhero skeeter-proof gear again, I
sauntered out with my camera toward the ledge and felt a small sound
of awe escape my throat. Dale joined me and we began to photograph
the awesome sight painted before us, glowing ever brighter with every
passing second.

Dale found another good spot where a heavy, cottonlike blanket of fog
could be seen comforting a farm off in the distance. The skeeters
were everywhere, but we were intent on getting our well-deserved
shots. Dale was a trooper. Even though I'd had my blood ransacked a
few got bit a couple times by then, I knew he was a far better target
in his less protective attire.

The sun peeked over the tops of the mountains and we took more shots
at our original location. Then, as it came up, we went down. On our
way we saw a frog, an eft, and finally, a chipmunk, who was very
patient with me as I flashed him a few times with my camera. Then,
before I knew it, we were at the bottom. It wasn't even 8am on this
beautifully clear, cool, and SAFE, Labor Day holiday.

Following this post are some of the shots from this fine morning.